Board games

Everything was harmonious on the cheese board, until the crackers ran out.

The cinnamon bears turned to hoarding peanuts and pepitas.

The hibiscus flowers built a cheese wall and fortified it with goldenberries. The flowers were desperate to protect their chocolate and honey stash.

Alas, twas not to be, the cinnamon bears got into the honey and then they both got eaten by me!

The End.

AWKWARD

I watch a vast array of trashy reality shows. Except.. I. Have. Not. Watched. Jersey. Shore.

Buuuuuut then, I binge watched Double Shot at Love. And THEN, I found out about Jersey Shore: Family Vacation. I am currently on season 4.

My husband (who knows the juicy deets of my shows because he hears it all while gaming in the next room) now shouts, “AWKWARD!” at the perfect moment. My heart melts.

Now I’m wondering if I can complete the passage, and weather watching the original Jersey Shore. At least then I’ll know what the note said.. I LOVE REALITY TV THIS TIME OF YEEEAR!!!

Deep session

I had a deep session today full of gentleness and joy! An important aspect of my progress is setting the intention. I am committed to see this through. And I trust myself that it will not be another trauma to heal the old one.

I realize that my type A perfectionist personality is really fighting my ability to fully relax and heal with ease.

I see improvement in waves. Some days I just lay on the table and think about a coffee shop the whole time. Some days I’m preoccupied with drama of the day in my head and sometimes I’m in my body, but just can’t get out of my own way.

Today there was a release at the top of my shoulders from this pushing up up up all the time. It let go in waves down my back, with a couple white tips trying to hold on as the release rolled down my spine.

By the end I was floating on the table– such ease in my body. Some choppy places tried to stand and object but they were kindly quieted and released.

At the end of the session I had the sensation that my left arm and leg were hanging off the side (they weren’t). It is the old memory? My left shoulder is joining me in the present moment!

I realize that I have a big cloud of fear and protection around my injury. No critic bigger than myself as I’ve worked to resolve this injury over the years. You can work hard at a lot of things, but not relaxing!!!

I am becoming aware of my unconsciousness in these parts of my body. They are waking up to now– with a sensation that I liken to a gong– it’s the shock of the trauma– this humming. When it passes, there is peace. There is a regenerated body and new nervous system. There is me, trusting myself and the safe space my healer and I have created. There are no surprises. I am doing the work. I am seeing the results. I am catching up with my future self and growing from experiences of the past.

Last week my healer asked me, “Do you by chance have another name?” I do. I walked into a store to pickup an order yesterday and was asked the same. I am opening to my innate power. Meeting myself by another name. Hello, nice to meet you.

Ayurvedic Summer Salad

I’ve been reading Lee Carroll’s Kryon book, “The Recalibration of Humanity” which talks about how each person has their own unique dietary needs based on their akashic inheritance over many lifetimes.

I enjoy Indian food with it’s depth of flavorful, warming spices. I decided to try some ayurveda inspired recipes this week in an effort to stimulate my appetite and eat more healthfully. I love the fresh herbs in this recipe from The Ayurvedic Institute in New Mexico.

Ingredients

  • Salad greens
  • French lentils
  • Fennel
  • Dill
  • Rice vinegar
  • Olive oil
  • Sunflower oil
  • Zucchini
  • Shallots
  • Couscous/quinoa
  • Parsley
  • Lemon
  • Beet
  • Avocado
  • Lime
  • Cilantro
  • Goat cheese

– Steam beet halves 20 min, cool, skin & chop then refrigerate.

– Soak 1/4 cup lentils overnight, rinse and simmer 20min in 1 cup water.

– Mix 1/4 cup chopped fennel, 2 Tbs dill, salt, pepper, 1 Tbs rice vinegar, 2 tsp olive oil.

– Saute 2 sm zucchini in chopped shallots, sunflower oil and rice vinegar.

– Mix lentils, fennel & zucchini and refrigerate.

– Saute quinoa in oil 2 min. Add 3/4 cup broth & simmer 12 min.

– Toss quinoa with 2 Tbs parsley, 1/2 tsp salt, 1/2 lemon’s juice, 1/4 tsp pepper.

– Blend avocado, 1 Tbs lime juice & zest, 1/2 cup olive oil, 2 Tbs rice vinegar, 1 Tbs parsley, 1 Tbs cilantro, salt and pepper.

– Toss greens with avocado dressing and layer lentils, quinoa, beets and a couple spoonfuls of goat cheese on top.

Yum!

Green Mantis

Watering the potted cactus on the front porch and I run into my buddy!

I dash for my camera- the mantis my captive subject. It always freaks me out how their pupils follow me. I have respect for this little creature but I also do NOT want to get landed on! Photo session complete, I decide to let my buddy alone.

I peek out on the porch a couple minutes later and the mantis is POOF- nowhere to be found. I run into him enough, that I know we’ll be seeing each other again soon.

Cicadas eyes are watching you. They see your every move!

Story Medicine

It is so tempting to use our energy worrying about others. It’s easy to redirect our attention to those around us, rather than confront an uncomfortable truth of our own.

1. Master Your Self

2. Honor the Free Choice of Others

I adopted these practices at the beginning of the year. I’m focusing on my personal growth and healing. I am learning to set boundaries that support my wellbeing.

I go to craniosacral therapy weekly. It makes me stop and “do nothing,” which I always need help with. It relaxes my muscles, calms my nerves and slows down my mind, making space for me to BE in my body!

I am healing myself from an injury in 1999 where I fell 6′ onto my head from the high jump. I have a chronic twist from the torque applied to my torso in that fall. I believe my psoas, diaphragm, stomach, nervous system, shoulder, neck and spine were affected.

Part of me is afraid to unwind all that is twisted up in my body from a twenty year old trauma. I am surrendering that idea and giving over to trusting myself.

On the table I breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth. I try to let thoughts drift by. I face the fact that my mind can not unlock this puzzle and doesn’t need to think in this moment. My body will show the way.

In the spring I embraced the metaphor of blossoming as part of my healing story. I had a couple sessions where I could visualize the energy through my torso like a yin yang of dark shadowy space and white light space. A wavy line separating light and dark as if it were an energetic fault in my body.

I have the sensation of a gong moving through me- vibrating, releasing and rebalancing.

I’m hearing my body speak. I’m experiencing it in new ways. I’m moving back in to renewed awareness of parts of me. Being fully present and connected to it feels like coming home. My fingers and toes tingle.

Stuck energy is evaporating away, layer by layer. I’m unwinding. I’m learning to relax fully and deeply. I’m realizing it takes practice to relieve stress but that I alone can empower myself to heal.

Autumn awaits and with it the harvest. I have set boundaries with people in my life as a form of self care. I ask permission and want to be asked permission. I speak my needs from a loving place. I look for positive ways to connect where everyone is comfortable. It can feel uncomfortable to have the conversation, but it’s important to be truthful up front so that everyone can be happy.

Two weeks ago on the table, I had a sense of all the people that I care about circled around me. I saw and felt the energetic connection to each person as pure love. I put aside worry, discord and any need to fix anything between us. I trust others’ choices for their life and love them no matter what! I honor them.

I am here, at the center of this beautiful circle.

My awareness moves into the bubble that I inhabit. Here. I am safe. I trust myself. I find myself, loving myself, sending love to others and surrounded by people that I love no matter the circumstance. All of my friends and family surround me in a harmonious and balanced way.

I am prompted to speak my truth and tell my story. I am meeting my higher self- a melting inward.

Fantastic Fungi

We just watched Fantastic Fungi on Netflix and it was awesome! Mushrooms have so many applications from breaking down oil and plastics, to bug control, to immune support and maybe the next antibiotic that slows a pandemic! Mushrooms can save the world.

The documentary explores studies on Turkey Tail for cancer, Lions Mane for dementia and of course the magical Psylocybin for depression and anxiety.

Once again, regenerative agriculture comes to mind where fungi and bacteria benefit the life of our soil, plants, animals and climate.

I’ve started using mycorrhizal fungi when we put a plant in the ground because it helps the roots reach out into the soil and bring back nutrients. It also holds water. And sequesters carbon. Good stuff!


Found a dried praying mantis at the front door yesterday; it was a blue moon. Does anybody know what that means? LOL

On Covid

I don’t often post about the pandemic; I prefer to focus on finding my joy. But when I do, you’ll find me reading Matt Shapiro’s blog Marginally Compelling. I got hooked and recently became a subscriber for access to all of his content. In a recent post, I appreciate the reminder that it’s NOT ABOUT MORALITY!!

-Matt Shapiro, Marginally Compelling

I sense from his writing that he is an independent thinker. He’s not trying to control or scare anyone. Shapiro is driven by curiosity and critical thinking.

I encourage you to subscribe to his newsletter! Or read some of his public posts and get hooked like I did. He does a monthly update for each state by region; check out his post for July. Here is one that talks about how Friends Don’t Belong in Buckets.

I also found this video to be a helpful reminder of the importance of maintaining proper perspective; it’s about Covid vaccinations and base rate fallacy.


For the last year, I am using an RSS reader for news. This let’s me pick the sites I follow and avoids me watching a news PROGRAM. I reserve my TV time for important shows like:

Love Island UK/AUS/USA, Catfish, 90 Day Fiance, Before the 90 days, Happily Ever After, the Other Way, Darcey & Stacey, the Single Life, the Family Chantel, Married At First Sight USA/AUS, Sister Wives, sMothered, Extreme Sisters, Welcome to Plathville, My Big Fat Fabulous Life, Seeking Sister Wife, Return to Amish, So Freaking Cheap, You, me & my Ex, Total Divas, Total Bellas, Miz & Mrs, Below Deck Med/Sailing, All Real Housewives franchises, Shahs of Sunset, Summer House, Southern Charm, Don’t Be Tardy, Vanderpump Rules, Marrying Millions, Family Karma, Doubling Down with the Derricos, the Farmer wants a Wife, I love a Mama’s Boy, Unexpected, Lost Resort, Camp Getaway, Toddlers & Tiaras…

Lemon Leaf Tea

Since I learned to feed my lemon tree three times a year, it gives me fruit! Right now the fruit is still green and camouflaged in the leafy canopy. I checked in with my tree yesterday and noticed that some of the “branches” were not woody or thorny; they were suckers that need to be pruned. Without the suckers, more energy can flow to the fruit-bearing branches.

I cut and bundled the suckers in my hands and as I did, a soft hint neroli tickled my nose! The tree is not flowering yet, but looks AND smells like it’s getting ready.

As I enjoyed the sensory experience of these prickly branches, I remembered being in the kitchen of a client and his wife. We were sitting at the island and she was heating up dinner for him and the contractors who were working out back. She had beautiful citrus trees and grape vines covering her yard. As I admired them, she told me that both lemon and grape leaves make a nutritive tea. She served me a cup with honey.

I’m going to make lemon leaf tea!

It was quite the epiphany. I removed leaves from the stems, then washed and dried them. I weighed 2 ounces of leaf into a 1/4 gallon mason jar, poured boiling water to the brim and sealed with a lid for 4-12 hours. When I popped the seal and strained the tea it was an amazing almost neon yellow color! And the flavor was just as inspiring- a harmony of light, lemon and leafiness. Next time I’m going to crush the leaves a bit before brewing.

It’s hard to find any information about lemon leaf and it’s preparations or beneficial qualities. If you have any stories or recipes, I’d be happy to hear them.

Stop the drama; Start a new life

This book changed my perspective on every social interaction I’ve had since. I feel like I cannot unsee what it showed me! Every one can benefit from reading this e-book, “Stop Being a Victim! The Secret to Inner Happiness” by Sharon Stewart. It’s affordable, short and life-changing. I highly recommend!

I wish I could buy this in print. It is definitely worthy of the home library. Here are some excerpts that really resonated with me: